I think in the depths of every thinking believer’s heart there are unguarded and seldom-mentioned moments when we wonder, “What if this whole Christianity thing is a hoax? What if I’m buying into all this just because I need something big and wonderful to believe in?” So many questions come up when we stand back and let our minds wander. I assume I’m not the only one who has experienced this?!
There is probably someone reading this who is worried that I’ve gone off the deep end to think such things, but don’t get me wrong. I don’t mention having these thoughts because I don’t believe. I am simply admitting that there have been plenty of moments when I have had some big questions.
At some point in my winding journey I decided that if God is all He claims to be, He can hold up to my doubts. If He really is the Great I Am, He probably isn’t pacing the floors of Heaven, biting His nails and fretting from a lack of validation by me. If His Word has survived centuries upon centuries without ceasing to exist, in spite of misinterpretations and misrepresentation, surely He is more than a nice idea invented by desperate fools. No other “nice idea” has endured that kind of history.
But this, I know. When we reduce Him to a smaller, more “manageable” God whom we can wrap our little brains around, we create a poor substitute who is no better than our understanding. The only way He can be Who He claims to be is to be unfathomable. For this reason, believers carry an incredible responsibility to be authentic about Him.
The moment we can “explain” Him away with easy answers, is the moment when it’s no longer about Him. It becomes about our need to be right. I’m starting to wonder if any intelligent person who chooses faith will ever really choose Him because they finally understand Him logically. What if the only proof came with being moved by His love?! The thing is… you just can’t argue with love. And even if you try to argue, love wins. It just does.
We can do a lot of damage trying to be right about everything. Or we can REALLY prove the existence of God by allowing His most irresistible quality – His love – to shine through our transparency. If everyone who is struggling with what to believe began to feel a consistent groundswell of genuine, selfless, no-strings-attached, non-controlling, holy LOVE – this planet would most definitely be transformed into a very, very different place. I’d like that. Wouldn’t you?!