Insecurity is a double-edged sword. It injures the very pride from which it was born, watching itself in the mirror because it is vain then complaining about what it sees. It thrives on visions of greatness while tying the hands of time with cowardly selfishness… the fear of being made a fool.
Insecurity feeds on false hope; and like a carrot dangling just out of reach, approval and applause are never satisfying enough to fill its neediness. The hope it seeks is the very hope it questions and doubts again and again. Yet insecurity, with all its faults, forces me to aim higher, reach farther and overcome the ever-heightening hurdles that make me stronger and braver. I know of only one defense against it. That is the refusal to let insecurity make decisions for me.
Sure, it rears its ugly head from time to time. But acknowledging it and nurturing it are two very different responses. Rather than letting it hold its dark shadows over my head, I seek the shelter of truer things; voices who remind me who I am and why insecurity will no longer rob the world of what it needs from me.
Insecurity is weakness. But woven into the human spirit is Eternal Hope, a power placed there by a Creator who is stronger than generations or powers or enemies that would love nothing more than to rob us of our intended purpose. What people think, what we fear we will become, what we fear we will not become… we simply don’t have time or space in our being to give ear to those soul-robbing thoughts.
Looking around, it may seem that no one else has insecurities quite like you do. But believe me, they do. Very likely, they believe you are the one who is fearless. So rise to the occasion. Live fearlessly. Be the bold, hopeful voice the world longs to hear. It starts with looking people in the eye, making decisions that give you room to grow, choosing not to use the filter you once used that stopped you in your tracks. Choose a new filter… one that does not allow insecurity to be a deciding factor. Just do what you know you need to do. Live moment by moment, don’t worry about where the next ounce of courage will come from. It will be there when you need it.
Know this: insecurity comes from a lie that says you’re not worthy of influence. Do not turn your ear to that lie. You will not believe the freedom you’ll feel when you realize that the lie no longer has a say-so in how your life plays out. THAT is living fearlessly. And it is exhilarating.
(“Live Fearlessly” was originally posted in June of 2009.)